When I found out I was pregnant, it seemed like the end of the world. I blamed and condemned myself and I presumed everyone else did. I had no one to turn to because my boyfriend at the time wanted me to terminate the pregnancy. All of a sudden I felt so alone.
…If I had not met the ladies outside the clinic that day, I am sure, I would have made the biggest mistake of my life. …
Even though I have always been against abortion, I wanted to terminate the pregnancy because I felt I couldn’t support the baby alone. I was crushed, sad, vulnerable and lonely. I was ashamed of the fact that I was bringing a baby into the world that was being rejected, even by his own father. As that was my first pregnancy a part of me wanted to keep the baby but I knew I couldn’t do it alone, I needed people to support me.
I went to an abortion clinic in Dublin for a consultation and had my mind set on terminating the baby, even though I knew the decision would hurt me for the rest of my life. It was the easiest way out and I didn’t really want to think twice about it.
As I was about to enter the clinic I met two of the most important people in my life. I call them my angels, I deeply believe God sent them to comfort me, to show me love. I was so sad and vulnerable that when they gave me their time and attention, I embraced it wholeheartedly. They took me for coffee and listened to me and made me realise that I didn’t have go through the pregnancy alone. I felt really comfortable with them and I think it’s because I knew they were not judgmental.
After the cup of coffee they introduced me to their friend who does the same work as them outside the clinic. They made me realise that there is support and resources out there for people in my situation and most importantly they were ready and willing to give me their friendships. Their friendships mean the world to me.
So they informed me about other options without making my decision for me. I ended up not going to the clinic. I went back home and I thought deeply about my decision to terminate the baby once again. I decided to keep the baby since I knew there was support and I made friends whom I knew would be there for me. Unfortunately I lost the baby, but even then my angels were all there for me.
The work these ladies do makes all the difference and changes lives. If I had not met the ladies outside the clinic that day, I am sure, I would have made the biggest mistake of my life. I am still friends with these women, they didn’t cut contact just because I am not pregnant anymore. I must say, I really respect them for that. Thanks girls.