Tracy’s Story
Every day I’m grateful and I have never regretted my decision.
I was a mam to three little boys all under 6 years old. My middle son being epileptic and showing ASD traits. Life was hard and just about manageable, we were just getting on our feet after years of hard times. I had just qualified as a massage therapist, we had just got engaged. Things were really going in a good direction. The kids had just started their summer holidays the day, I did the test. I was in so much shock to see I was pregnant with baby number 4. We really didn’t think I could be, I thought I was just being silly. I didn’t want another baby at all. I rang my now-husband. He went so quiet. I rang my mam too.
Everyone's reaction was there is 'no way' I could keep this baby, and I 'had' to have an abortion.
Everyone's reaction was there is 'no way' I could keep this baby, and I 'had' to have an abortion.
The next few weeks I sunk into depression. Each option felt wrong. I contacted another organisation for a dating scan and they basically told me they could see nothing. The counsellor told me to book England as soon as I could. I bought a pill online and arranged to collect it up north as I had no one to mind the boys to go to the UK and the cost was too much. Then I got in contact with Gianna Care and a lady rang me straight away.
“It was the first time someone actually gave me hope that I could do it, the first time I had someone on my side.”
A big part of me still felt it was going to be too much, but I went for a scan with this Gianna Care lady and there was a strong heartbeat. I cried and knew deep down I just couldn’t go through with an abortion after having three other children. The ‘what ifs’ would have killed me.
Then at ten weeks, I felt very overwhelmed again. I rang up and booked an abortion but the entire time on the phone it felt wrong. I cried so much and felt so alone. Finally, I rang Gianna Care and they gave me hope once again. I never went to that appointment and even though I was very down and worried we carried on. I didn’t tell many people or book my first maternity appointment for a long time as I couldn’t face it. When I did most peoples reactions weren’t good. We don’t have much family support either so life can be hard going. Fast forward to 19 weeks. We found out we were having a baby girl after three boys!!
We were so happy and excited and we really couldn't believe that we nearly had an abortion.
We were so happy and excited and we really couldn't believe that we nearly had an abortion.
From there on things got easier. When I first saw my little baby girl I couldn’t believe she was finally here. She’s just the happiest most beautiful baby. Everyone stops me to see her. It’s not always easy but so worth it the absolute joy she has brought us. That Gianna Care lady has become a good friend and amazing support. Without her, I wouldn’t have my girl I would be living a life of ‘what if’s’. Every day I’m grateful and have never regretted my decision.
There is nothing this organisation wouldn't do to help you. Every day I'm grateful and have never regretted my decision.
There is nothing this organisation wouldn't do to help you. Every day I'm grateful and have never regretted my decision.
